How I Overcame Self-Doubt (This Time)

Recently, I found myself in a several day period of self-doubt. It was starting to overtake my life.

When I’m in a “down” place, I take my “down-ness” all the way. I don’t manage my energy, I don’t eat well, I don’t exercise, I don’t sleep well, and I’m certainly not the nicest person to be around.

(Insert hubby unhappy image here!)

One day during this period, I was feeling particularly angry that I wasn’t receiving any messages of support from the universe (which would be very hard to do when I’m eating brownies, skipping workouts, and avoiding writing my book).

That night when I went to bed, I had a tough time falling asleep. I could sense my fear that I was on the wrong path coursing through my body.

At 3:15a.m. I woke up. I was lying on my left side, facing the edge of the bed.

In the dark, I could sense that someone was there, crouched next to my bed with arms perched on the edge. Their chin was resting on their arms.

goldenlightballsThis didn’t feel scary to me – if anything, I was drawn in and became deeply interested in what was occurring.

I heard, “We’ve given you all of this” and I was shown about a dozen beautiful, opaque, globes of light, each the size of an extra large orange spread out across my chest.

Then, I felt this immense energy of love spreading through my body.

“You have everything you need to do what you came here to do, Danielle. See?” and the arms again gestured toward the gorgeous balls of light.

“We’re so excited to see how you do it! Can you do it? Here you go!” said the voice inside my head.

I then remember sitting up in my bed, clear-headed for the first time in almost a week. I thought to myself, “Well, of course I’m going to do it!” and just wanted to yell, “Wooo hooo!” (But of course I couldn’t as Kevin was sound asleep next to me.)

Now, you could say this was just a dream or maybe it was a vision from the universe – or whatever else you want to call it.

For me, it was the reminder that, just like everyone else, I already have everything I need to explore, grow, and be in service to others. It’s all here, right here, right now – and it always has been.

Do I know what is in each of those golden light globes? No. But, I don’t need to. All I need to do is to keep following the passion – building and creating what makes my heart SING and I’m doing my job.

That’s what that “guy” crouching next to my bed helped me to remember.

People ask me all the time, “how do I know if I’m on the right path?” or “How do I find my path?” To you, my answer is – just follow the passion.

The passion IS your path.

Love,

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  1. AJ Albanese
    AJ Albanese says:

    I have learned recently and agree that when we have a passion for something like animals, writing, teaching, etc., that this IS the path that we should be taking. The passion fuels the path we take and when we listen to our inner voice (or higher power), usually our path opens up and goes in the direction that we need it to go. I also agree that when eating unhealthy (although sometimes yummy) foods, don’t exercise, close down our spirits to the outside world, we can no longer recognize that we have the power and passion to live our intended lives. I have always been a spiritual person, but most recently, when I lost 100 pounds in the course of a year (still have more to go), this opened me up more to help others, like volunteering helping homeless animals, taking care of my mother who has Dementia, and I am still able to do my work and work on my life path to satisfy my inner soul and being. I have realized, after 51 years of living on this earth and knowing I was a sensitive soul with a life path, but I was a prisoner in my own body, due carrying the extra weight, which I have had since I was was Kindergarten age. A whole new world is opening up for me and is slowing unraveling each day. It’s very exciting! 🙂 We all have the power within us, IF we listen!

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  2. Cristina
    Cristina says:

    Danielle, I am fairly certain you wrote this blog for me. Connecting to the idea that I have everything I need and more importantly that it becomes more clear as I follow my passion – well that feels very much like what I have been working on for the past year. It’s not easy and takes faith and magic and people by your bed whispering in your ear when you don’t really believe. Love love love

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  3. Brian Belcher
    Brian Belcher says:

    Thank You for this Danielle, I have been struggling lately with this a little, It comes back to what you said, passion. thank you for writing this.

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  4. Safena
    Safena says:

    Danielle. Beautiful reminder to all of us. Thank you for sharing. Sometimes I am all faith and motivation and then I hit times of doubt fear anger and then a miracle like the one you described comes in and reminds me of what I know to be true. Thank God!!!! Love to you. You are an inspiration!!! ❤️

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  5. Sue Nicholls
    Sue Nicholls says:

    Hi Danielle, I love it when you open your heart to us. Your account above reminds me of some that happened a few years ago. I was in a particularly bad place when I succombed to a second bout of Norovirus (I lost a stone in weight during this gut infection). I couldn’t retain anything I drank or ate. I was feeling down one night and lying on my side when I sensed an entity crouched by the side of the bed who distinctly said, ‘Don’t worry Sue, this will be over in 24 hrs’. It turns out it was and I was just fine after 24hrs passed.

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  6. Carolyn Baumann
    Carolyn Baumann says:

    Danielle, this came to me at the perfect time because today I felt myself slipping into feelings of down-ness and self-doubt over fulfilling what I know in my heart of hearts to be my life’s purpose as a healer. Your words helped me. Thank you.

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  7. rita
    rita says:

    Sometimes those demons steal into our mind to take our joy. The best possible news is as humans we all feel this periodically but trusting and learning how to defeat this enemy within is doable. With leaders such as Danielle sharing moments of weakness and then the victory it makes our paths clearer to follow. Keep learning and trusting.

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  8. Oona
    Oona says:

    Thank you for your story, Danielle! I keep seeing repeating numbers these days on my watch (12:12, 22:22 a.s.o.), I’m sure they’re “telling” me something, I thought they were warnings but now you gave me hope they’re uplifting.

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